What you want is there for you whenever you want it. You must be disciplined and patient.
Most people think that with a plan and positive thinking the blessing will unfold automatically. And although planning and positivity are part of the process, they are more the start of the journey.
The process is; a plan, belief in the plan, mini goals for that plan, discipline to comply with the goals, flexibility to alter the plan when some of the goals don't fit, and of course patience.
I know, believe me, I know what it's like when you make a plan, put your heart into it, and work diligently on it only to have it grow slowly or halt altogether. It's even more disheartening when you had some great upside success and then with no rhyme or reason the downside begins.
That too is sometimes part of the plan that you didn't prepare for but you are strong enough for. So don't give up. You had what it took to create it and you have what it takes to continue it.
In some cases, you may have to regroup and re-plan, but at least at that stage, you will have a point of reference of what works and what doesn't. Then you will have even more of the possibility to grow stronger and for longer.
I love you. I believe in you. You reading this, all you need to do is keep believing in yourself.