Saturday, April 4, 2015

TESTIMONY::: SHAME


I do not boast about the kind things I do for people, because it makes me feel good to be good and that alone is satisfying, so I gain no extra pleasure in telling people what nice things I do. However, right now is different, so please give me some of your time as you read this post.
Just a little while ago I was on my way to Loblaws to grab some dog food, and there was a young man sitting on the ground with a cardboard sign that said "I am 19 years old. I never thought I'd have to panhandle, but here I am. I need money for food and any amount of change will help."
He had his hood over his head, and his face was lowered so I couldn't see his eyes. I thought about my morning affirmation I posted today " Whenever I possibly can I will do good for those who need it." and thought I'd buy him something to eat in Loblaws and give it to him on my way out. As I was passing him I noticed he was crying because his body was shaking and his head was hung in shame. I bent down and asked him what happened. To my surprise he looked me in my eyes and started to tell me he did something bad and his dad kicked him out and he has nobody in his life to rely on. He was so open and honest. I listened as I was kneeling next to him and his tears were streaming down his face. He was so very sorrowful. I couldn't help but to think about my own son who is also 19 and my heart was just breaking.
He said "My life is ruined. I don't know what to do." After the young man told me what bad thing he did (he ripped of atm machines) I gave him advice and mentioned that we are not solely judged by our actions, because none of us are perfect, but we are judged by the tablet of our hearts, and that his heart is showing remorse, therefore God will forgive him.
He seemed to calm down. Then I told him I was going to do a little shopping and I'd be back. While I was in Loblaws I realized that the food options for him was pretty much limited, because most things he would have to cook, and the ready made food, in my opinion, is overpriced. So I decided to give him cash.
When I got back to him he was sniffling, not crying any longer, but still distraught. I said "Listen, I didn't buy you any food because you aren't able to heat it up or cook it. So I'm going to give you this $20, but I want you to do me two favours."
He looked at me with big doe eyes and said "Okay" in the most innocent voice. Then I said "first favour, please forgive yourself, it's the first step to healing. Secondly, I want you to realize that this is only an experience and this will pass." then I added "I once read that if you have not experienced some kind of pain in life, you are not completely experiencing life, and what are you here for if not to live?! Plus now you have a story to tell younger ones some day in hopes to prevent them from doing the same actions, and not only that you will learn from these circumstances and become wiser. "
Haha, before I was even finished my talk he was folding up his cardboard, grabbing his cup and getting up off the ground. He had a glow his eyes that expressed gratitude and appreciation for the love I offered. It made me feel good, nevertheless he still has a long road ahead of him and needs more love and guidance. I was there to plant the seed, but our prayers and positive energy will help to fertilize the seed.
Let's all send love and pure energy to DANNY. Like all kids he is our future. We never know, perhaps one day he will help a nation and in the midst of it help our future generation.
Thank you for your time! Enjoy your day. xoxo
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